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I Love Jesus, But I Want to Die

Finding Hope in the Darkness of Depression

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I Love Jesus, But I Want to Die

By: Sarah J. Robinson, Holly Oxhandler - introduction PhD LMSW
Narrated by: Sarah J. Robinson
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A compassionate, shame-free guide for your darkest days

“A one-of-a-kind book . . . to read for yourself or give to a struggling friend or loved one without the fear that depression and suicidal thoughts will be minimized, medicalized or over-spiritualized.”—Kay Warren, cofounder of Saddleback Church
 
What happens when loving Jesus doesn’t cure you of depression, anxiety, or suicidal thoughts? You might be crushed by shame over your mental illness, only to be told by well-meaning Christians to “choose joy” and “pray more.” So you beg God to take away the pain, but nothing eases the ache inside. As darkness lingers and color drains from your world, you’re left wondering if God has abandoned you. 
 
You just want a way out.
 
But there’s hope.
 
In I Love Jesus, But I Want to Die, Sarah J. Robinson offers a healthy, practical, and shame-free guide for Christians struggling with mental illness. With unflinching honesty, Sarah shares her story of battling depression and fighting to stay alive despite toxic theology that made her afraid to seek help outside the church. Pairing her own story with scriptural insights, mental health research, and simple practices, Sarah helps you reconnect with the God who is present in our deepest anguish and discover that you are worth everything it takes to get better.
 
Beautifully written and full of hard-won wisdom, I Love Jesus, But I Want to Die offers a path toward a rich, hope-filled life in Christ, even when healing doesn’t look like what you expect.


* This audiobook edition includes a downloadable PDF of appendices from the book. Christianity Mental Health Mood Disorders Personal Development Psychology & Mental Health Health
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“Robinson’s soothing tips and sage advice should go a long way toward helping those in need of assistance.”—Publishers Weekly
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Thank you for telling your story in all its rawness. it was refreshing to hear a follower of Jesus be honest about their mental health journey without shying away from the toughest parts.

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