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Remothering Myself

A Memoir of Breaking Cycles and Becoming Whole

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Remothering Myself

By: Sarah Harris-Cowan
Narrated by: Elizabeth Merrill
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Summary

I wasn’t the kind of mother I wanted to be.

Raised in chaos and violence, I carried my wounds into early motherhood, young, overwhelmed, and repeating the very patterns I swore I’d never pass on. I screamed. I hit. I walked away when they needed me most. And eventually, I gave up custody of the children I loved more than anything.

This is not a redemption story with a neat bow. It’s a raw, unflinching memoir about what it takes to break generational cycles from the inside out. About failing -deeply- and still choosing to come back. About learning how to parent with intention after years of surviving on instinct. About becoming a professional nanny, and finding healing in the sacred, everyday moments of caregiving. And about finally, at age forty, being diagnosed with bipolar disorder, and starting to understand myself for the first time.

Remothering Myself is a story for anyone who’s ever felt like they were too far gone. It’s for mothers carrying guilt, for survivors learning how to live in their bodies, for cycle-breakers trying to raise children differently than they were raised.

It’s not just a book about motherhood. It’s a book about becoming.

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If you’re looking for a polished, "everything happens for a reason" kind of memoir, this isn't it. Remothering Myself is raw, messy, and at times, incredibly heavy but that’s exactly why it works.

Sarah Harris Cowan doesn’t hold back. She opens up about the "foggy" memories of a childhood that looked happy on the surface but was laced with undiagnosed mental illness and cycles of abuse. Narrated by Elizabeth Merrill, the audiobook feels like a long, honest conversation with someone who has finally decided to stop protecting the people who hurt her.

Sarah Harris Cowan doesn’t hold back.

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This memoir feels raw, honest, and thoughtfully written. The idea of “remothering” yourself is explored in a way that feels both personal and relatable. As the story unfolds, the journey of breaking cycles is handled with care and depth

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'Remothering Myself', by Sarah Harris-Cowan is a powerful and emotional book. It will have you in your feelings. It doesn't cover up the realities of healing from a messy and painful past. The author writes about her own childhood trauma and how it affected her growing up and life as a mother. She doesn't hold back about making bad mistakes or letting her survival instincts take the wheel. A lot of parents feel this guilt, but never talk about it. It's interesting how taking care of someone else kids actually helped her figure out how to be a mom. It brought her a lot of peace. Then she was diagnosed as bipolar at age forty, this mad her take a closer look at life. She realized she had to stop the toxic patterns and love how to love herself. This is a touching story that will help you stop and smell the roses. You have to recognize and change the bad habits with yourself and the family so you can find a way to love yourself.

Real talk about parenting guilt

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This audiobook is deeply emotional and very real. It doesn’t try to soften the story instead, it speaks honestly about painful experiences, childhood memories, and the long road to healing. You can really feel the vulnerability in the narration, which makes it easy to connect with, even when parts are hard to hear.

What makes it stand out is how raw and personal it feels, like someone sharing their truth without holding back. It’s not always an easy listen, but it’s powerful and meaningful. By the end, it leaves you reflecting on resilience, pain, and what it means to keep going.

it leaves you reflecting on resilience and pain.

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This was a wonderfully written story of someone who was working on how to become a better person by dealing with her own childhood trauma so she doesn't pass that down to her own children.

How to break cycles to become better

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