Ten weeks in Bali and I'm fried.

I came out here to up my content game, and in some ways I have. But I'm shattered. The agency, the podcast, the YouTube, the vlogs. I hired an editor over a month ago and somehow I'm still spending just as much time on revisions, feedback and SOPs as I was before.

So this one is completely off the cuff. No script, no polish, just me in a guest house talking through what's actually going on in my head.

I get into the strange day I looked at my Spotify analytics and saw a huge spike, and how the first thing I felt was not excitement but fear. I talk about whether I even want this to take off, the kind of person who tends to get famous being the exact kind of person who probably shouldn't, and the clip that suddenly pulled in a whole new audience while alienating another.

There's also the slightly mad realisation that I'm making a clip of myself saying I don't want more people to see my stuff, because I want more people to see it.

In this episode:

- Why ten weeks of hard content work hasn't given me the payoff I expected

- The Spotify spike that made me shake, and why fear showed up before joy

- Whether I actually want fame or just a bit of micro niche recognition

- The "girls vs women" clip, and getting two opposite signals at once

- Laughing at myself on camera, and the shy person underneath all of it

- Whether to gate my work, charge for it, or build something I can actually live from

- No guest this week. Just me, unedited, real life from a guest house in Bali.

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I put Dr Joey Weber in the passenger seat, let ChatGPT choose the route, and drove through the Southern Lake District for the first ever guest Roadcast.

What started as a rainy drive turned into a conversation about panic attacks, death anxiety, getting older, positive psychology, dopamine loops, burnout, AI, nature, and somehow… fish and chips.

This one goes from genuinely deep to completely ridiculous.

In this episode:

• Why panic attacks can feel like you’re dying

• Health anxiety vs death anxiety

• Getting older and seeing your parents age

• Joey’s new book on equanimity and positive psychology

• Trauma, responsibility and not making pain your identity

• Dopamine loops, phones, boredom and AI work addiction

• Burnout, recovery and getting back to basics

• £31 fish and chips in the Lake District

Comment below: have you ever had a panic attack that felt physical?

TIME STAMPS

00:00 I thought I was dying

00:52 The first guest Roadcast begins

01:15 Letting ChatGPT choose the route

02:02 Picking up Dr Joey Weber

03:44 Having it all but feeling miserable

04:13 The panic attack that changed everything

06:46 Death anxiety vs health anxiety

07:35 Getting older and seeing everyone change

10:28 Why this became the 100th episode

11:03 Reaching 100 podcast episodes

11:56 Joey’s honest first impression of the podcast

14:15 Why Joey nearly didn’t want to podcast again

15:40 Joey’s book deal

16:08 Positive psychology and equanimity

17:09 Adlerian psychology and responsibility

19:30 Trauma without making it your identity

22:07 What’s strong, not what’s wrong

24:57 The PERMA model explained

27:28 Blaming childhood vs owning the good stuff

28:14 Letting be vs letting go

29:17 Glimmers and equanimity

30:25 Stopping for a wet Lake District walk

30:51 Beans on toast, nature and safety

31:36 Is filming yourself in nature egotistical?

31:55 How Jason relaxes

32:35 Do podcasters copy other podcasters?

33:01 The Raincast begins

33:08 Patience, discomfort and British weather

33:40 Dopamine Nation and modern pleasure

34:13 Are young people chasing micro-pleasure?

36:52 Phones, boredom and losing imagination

37:22 AI work addiction and burnout

38:45 The work row that exposed burnout

39:37 Passion fatigue and rebuilding basics

40:42 Mental fitness and recovery speed

41:33 The fish and chips detour

42:28 Vinegar and blood sugar

43:20 Batter, gluten and getting older

45:32 Organic apples and energy fields

46:42 The £31 fish and chips shock

48:58 Fish and chip dates

49:16 Energetic fields after fish and chips

50:44 Why Joey doesn’t do movie quotes

51:46 Meeting Steve Coogan on MDMA

52:50 Accidental fish and chip reviewers

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Awaken Out of Context: https://awakenoutofcontext.com

The Chapter System: https://thechaptersystem.com

VLOGS: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=8ky3sQEMwUM&list=PLMebuClQRf09N1EW4xaBRDZJQqPlDB_5B

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Yogi (my editor) came down with double vision this week so the vlog couldn't ship. Recorded this AMA in a Canggu cafe before heading to the Gili Islands with Tommy and Mika.I went to Instagram and Facebook for questions and got through nine of them. We cover the obviously most important question (ten horse-sized ducks vs a hundred duck-sized horses), why I'm wary of going hard left or right politically, an update on my back (turns out I have an anterior pelvic tilt nobody else spotted), what I love and dislike about Bali life, my current relationship with social media, how I'm using AI as a daily reflection and decision-making tool, the females vs women debate, why most fitness advice doesn't apply to you, and the "you are enough" advice plus the daughter-marry-me test that I think actually matters.Plus an honest answer on dating in Bali at nine weeks in.awakenoutofcontext.comthechaptersystem.com If you enjoyed this episode, you may also enjoy these:https://www.youtube.com/playlist?list=PLMebuClQRf09DvwNgIXJOsd6ca4azb7nQ🎙️ MY STUFFAwaken Out of Context: https://awakenoutofcontext.comThe Chapter System: https://thechaptersystem.com📍 Canggu, Bali#AwakenOutOfContext #BaliPodcast #AMA #AskMeAnything #YouAreEnough #PerformanceVsAuthenticity