"I was smuggling drugs inside my body. I was passing out most nights. I hated my life."

Eight years ago, Tash Peacock was a mum of two battling alcohol, cocaine and speed addiction. She was depressed, anxious, isolated and trapped in a cycle she couldn't escape. Addiction had taken her further than she ever imagined, leading her to take huge risks just to keep going. Then one morning, after a three-day binge, she found her two-year-old daughter playing in the same room where drugs had been taken just hours before.

That moment cut through the denial and planted a seed.

Tash opens up about the reality of addiction, relapse and recovery. We talk about getting drunk for the first time at 13 and ending up in hospital, being arrested as a teenager, using amphetamine-based slimming tablets, seeking chaos and excitement, and why she believes undiagnosed ADHD played a huge role in her addiction.

We also explore why some people can have one drink and stop while others can't, whether addiction is a choice, why recovery can feel like grief, and why the life she once thought would be boring became the best thing that ever happened to her.

This isn't just a conversation about addiction. It's a conversation about self-hatred, identity, hope and what happens when you finally decide you don't want to live like this anymore.

Tash talks about sobriety with a joy that is genuinely infectious. You'll leave this conversation feeling lighter, more hopeful and with a reminder that even the most chaotic lives can be rebuilt, one decision at a time.

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Topics -

0:00 Trailer & Intro

3:05 A rock bottom moment

10:50 Do you REALLY decide to get sober?

13:05 How Tash smashed her denial

16:45 The moment Tash could no longer ignore the pain

18:25 Are addicts weak?

21:05 Nature vs nurture

23:05 Addiction to slimming tablets

26:45 Love addiction

28:05 Alcohol to coke/speed

31:20 Addiction link to ADHD

36:25 Functioning vs non functioning

38:50 Smuggling drugs inside yourself

42:35 Severe cognitive decline

44:35 How Tash got sober

50:05 The Clear Head Club

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